dear diary,

now that im seeing how it feels to be on the other side, it doesn’t matter.  i’ll get over it.  i was better off pretending that i didn’t give a damn about you anyway. fck it.

i’d love it if once in a while,  when i told myself not to or to do something, myself would actually listen.  haha. if that makes sense.  sounds confusing but that was definitely the way it was supposed to sound. no weird errors.  i gotta stop wishing things would change and not doing anything to spark it.  well, next time i want to see progress or a goal achieved, im gonna bring it there. even if i have to drag it to the end of the tunnel before i reach some results.  bring it on.

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you…

1) christmas is my favorite holiday. everyone’s just happy and warm even though it’s the coldest season

2) i observe almost everything. so in case you’re wondering, yes, i’ve noticed (;

3) it takes a lot to get on my nerves of steel

4) i have dreams that show the future (x

5) i wish for the best but under all of that, i’m pretty hopeless

6) i hate awkwardness, unless its a good kind. haha.

7) i don’t make any sense if i say what i’m thinking out loud “/

8) its hard for me to open up or be myself around most people

9) i wish i had some kind of skill or talent

10) i never show if i’m irritated to anyone except for my family

11) i’d like to think i’m a good person, but so does everyone else. and that’s just not the case.

12) the proposal is probably my favorite movie for 2009

13) i’d love to study abroad and then become a computer engineer

14) i love pho and boba

15) i think i’m gonna quit doing this

16) i suck at math and choir

17) i hate it when people act like everything in their life is more important than being with you

18) i wish i didn’t suck at life

19) my determination faded this year and i can’t get it back

20) i’ve learned that some friends just love to hurt you

21) i love it when you stay up late with people and then and 2-4 in the morning everyone seems high and laughs at everything

22) i like the feeling when i finish writing an essay

23) chick flick/ funny movies are great

24) my brothers are annoying and funny at the same time

25) i hate it when people leave without saying goodbye

What’s your 7th text in your inbox?:
you would like to know…

just kidding. its a happy thanksgiving text i’m sure.

When you’re at the grocery store do you use the self-​checkout?​:​
nopeeee, i like talking to cashiers

Who are you texting right now?:
am i supposed to be texting all the time?

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?:
yes i would…if kailene was abandoned there too.  she’s an expert on everything (;

Who do you text the most?:
my kinderbuddy<33333

First person to text today:
hmmm, ewww. victorias secret XXXD

Last text you got last night and who was it from?:
goodnight

-gayle ann yee 

What color are your eyes?:
red, because i’m a vampire

Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?:
i’m guessing it was my dad, or maybe andrea.  tonight (:

Do you like your parents?:
i love them to death.

Do you secretly like someone? It’s ok, you can tell me:
i like almost everyone :D  but attracted to someone, very much so

Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?:
this is a dumb question.

Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?:
EAT! hahahaha

What time did you go to bed? Why?:
12, trying to watch the ugly truth -.-

How long does it take you to shower?:
half an hour, i feel bad for using so much waters );

What did you do on New Year’s Eve?:
i can’t think back that far “/

Was your mom there?:
of course. she’s always there.

Can you speak any other language than English?:
some tagalog if you push me to

What is the last letter of your middle name?:
S, for smiley

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?:
always. haha. unless i just got the mail on my way home (x

Are you scared of flying?:
most of the time.  because i’m afraid of heights.  but it passes soon enough

What do you sleep in?:
your bed

Do you like funny people or serious people?:
i love funny people≥ serious sours

What are you listening to?:
i just realized that its silent. i should be asleep before black friday shoppping but oh well. i know that i wont want to wake up when its time to leave. i’ll turn on some music

What do you have planned for tonight?:
i’m going to go to space, visit pluto, find aliens, fight giant spiders, find the cure for cancer, then watch new moon while laughing like a crazy maniac.  these questions are so random

Does the last person you kissed have a black truck?:
what does that have to do with pie ?! STUPID!

Do you have a favorite item of clothing?:
no i don’t, now stop trying to know me stalker!

Do you like messages or comments better?:
i like messages so i don’t have to click anywhere to write back

Last thing you ate:
bean casserole, shrimp scampy, apple pie, marble cheesecake, and everything you could ever imagine.

What was last thing you drank?:
a rock, jk water

Are you happy right now?:
very very very. but also very sleepy

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?:
hmmm, that such a hard question. the ability to teleport!

Who makes you happiest right now?:
my mom and dad.  they hate to see me sad.  its gonna kill me someday, forgeting how much they love me

What were you doing at midnight last night?:
watching precious );

What is for dinner tonight?:
everything in sams tarnation

What is the last thing you thought about?:
n, j, t, n, m, d.

^^people

When was the last time you cried really, really hard?:
last week. i forget what for, but it was really short

Is there someone you’d like to fix things with?:
definitely. i’ll always want to fix a broken relationship

What’s a happy time you’ve had in the past week?:
my aunts graduation party

Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?:
my brother

What are you looking forward to?:
christmas and shopping, this will be my first time shopping on black friday

What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever heated up in the microwave?:
crayonssssssss, ahaha

Have you ever liked someone that treated you like crap?:
doesnt that happen to everyone?

Have you ever seen a zebra?:
yes, her name is _______

Has anyone disappointed you recently?:
um, yeah. but she ALWAYS disappoints me.  its like her specialty

Are you there for your friends?:
i’d like to think so.  i’m sorry if i wasn’t.  know you can call me, no matter what.

Are you jealous of anyone?:
i’m jealous of certain things in everyone, because i admire them

Do you love someone?:
truly

How many true friends do you have?:
i can’t count that.

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